Thinking about You.
Yet you say I don't.
Do I have a Choice?
I'm stuck in between.
And this scenario will replay itself.
All due to my actions.
And so, the Kid started crying in the rather unusual position.
We told him to Sit and relax.
Sir told me to bring him upstairs for a drink.
I felt for him.
Couldn't stop sobbing.
Put my arm around Him and brought him to the water cooler.
Talked to Him while on the way. He wouldn't respond.
Only kept sobbing. Poor kid.
Let him drink. Led him to a bench in the canteen.
Opened him up, consoled, and Voila, kiddo stopped crying.
That made me unbelievably happy. To know I had that kind of power.
He said he felt pain doing the push ups.
We weren't scolding him at all. Just trying to let him learn the right way to do them.
Whether Chest or Triceps push ups. He just couldn't do it.
But we Didn't say a single thing that was supposed to hurt.
Of course You'll feel pain doing physical exercises.
I wouldn't call it pain. Just discomfort.
I asked,
''Is that the only reason why you're sad and crying right now?''
He said Yes. I was testing Him.
Tried again,
''Is that really your answer? Aren't you crying cause of anything else?''
He then said no.
''You're sad and crying cause You weren't able to do them, Right?''
And so he opened up.
That's us Humans. Weak as he is.
But He will grow up to be strong.
Just as I did.
I saw Myself in Him,
Three years past in Sec one.
That Weakling. Who now has power he never imagined he'd posses.
That was like Corporal Farhan consoling Himself,
Corporal Farhan at almost 16, Consoling his younger, inexperienced self,
Aged 13.
But today, That Kid's name was Iwan.
Not Farhan who would later acquire the name Syah behind.
And I hope he will grow to be stronger than I was at 16.
And being in Part D and D1's platoon was awesome.
Even for those 15mins or so.
We never trained together before.
But we were great at drills.
Training on Monday. ORD soon.
Haha!
ORD=My statement!
But Let's share that moment together.
On a Side Note,
One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.
If you’re against abortion, reblog.
And right now, I don't want to guess what You're about to ask.
If it's taking such a long time, Surely it has to be rather important.
To You. And Potentially, To me.
Is Time and Distance the Problem to You?
Received at Text from Helmi Aka GAY.
Muacks! I love u han!
Love you too Amy. Monday onwards go ncc every week please.
I didn't do anything to deserve his Love.
The World really is a Joke when out of Love.
My Initials: MFS.
Ynwa, You'll Never Walk Alone.
-Farhan Syah, Rockstar
Labels: -Somewhere, in the back of my mind. I know that You will be mine.
